THE WINNER IS....................

DESIGN GODDESS!!!!

Congrats you have won the 2005 Cheermeup contest! If for some reason you can't complete the obligations of the job, the crown will then be turned over to first runner up, BATGIRL. Alright thanks for voting everyone! Thanks to Design we had a nice chat on IM the other night and she already did cheer me up, you guys rock.

I am a little nervous to post this because Steph might kick my ass, but I am going to post it anyway, I heard from KJ the other day. Guess what she and the guy she broke up with, and then got back together with, they're broken up AGAIN! I have to say this might make me a bad human being but I was happy. Here is part of our convo, you be the judge. DISCLAIMER some parts were taken out, that had nothing to do with KJ and I :)

kj: i'm on me: you score pts kj: i lost some though me: huh kj: we broke up again kj: :-) kj: but no worries...i'm not gonna whine at ya...it's all good me: how can you and i break up? me: we were never dating me: you broke up with C? kj: yea me: this might sound very insincere but I am not trying to be, I am very sorry me: and i am your friend and i will listen if you want to whine kj: no, it's ok me: I am sorry kj: well i appreciate that me: god now i feel bad kj: i wasn't convinced i gave all i had last time...this time i know i did, so it's ok me: yes but i still feel bad kj: and i do appreciate that me: so does that mean you can hang out with me sat? okeh that might be an inappropriate ? kj: saturday, what about Purdue's game? me: i am gonna be on the field kj: oh yeah me: the game starts at like noon me: i am having a nooner me: may i ask you something? kj: yes me: are you okeh? kj: yes and no kj: was that the question? me: yeah me: you sure you don't wanna talk about it? kj: yes, i said let's just say you were right me: honey i wish i wasn't :-( cuz i feel like horseshit right now kj: you shouldn't kj: you could gloat if you want. i can't really complain me: but i do me: i would never do that kj: i'm not saying you would kj: just that you could me: I kind of wish I hadn't said some things i did kj: it's ok kj: i understand me: no it's not I treated you badly because I was blinded by anger kj: i get caught up in the "love" business me: that's what I like about you though kj: and when serious things like breakups happen i really think hard about things kj: cause ya know if you just let go, then what if you weren't supposed to, ya know? kj: and now...well, now i know me: yes i know me: i understand exactly where you're coming from kj: granted i only have a semblance of pride at this point, but that's ok me: but i am serious if you want to talk about it i can take it kj: not much to talk about kj: i could just tell he didn't really want to be with me and confronted the situation last night and we talked through it with even heads me: well that's good you were able to do it with even heads kj: i'm a little pissed about a couple of things, but i'll live kj: and i don't want to be anywhere near C for a while me: you can come to our party but that's quite a commute kj: thanks, but i think you have enough on your hands me: what does that mean? kj: good question kj: don't need to babysit me me: pish kj: besides i'm still getting over this whole you were right thing me: sorry i didn't mean to laugh i thought you were kidding kj: it's ok, i was partially kj: why do i have to be a pansy today? me: i thought you were one everyday :-) haha jk kj: i hate this feeling down crap kj: i need to design a pill to conquer it me: lol careful there me: you sure it's 100% over? kj: honestly? kj: i'm never sure about those things kj: i mean really me: i know kj: if someone you used to date came to you a year or 2 later and was like, i never realized how great this and that and so on and i love you this and that and so on....can you know you're not gonna say, well let's see what happens now? me: I am very different from you i am not sure i would give them another chance kj: i'm a sucker for love kj: i can't help it kj: since i was a kid all i've wanted is someone to love who loves me back. everything else is secondary me: ia m too but come on how many times are you going to give it that old college try before you realize it's time to move on me: I would really like to talk to this dude kj: and why? me: I want to know what's so special kj: to see what it takes to make me go stupid? me: to see why you keep giving him chance after chance after chance kj: you wouldn't see it though kj: i see it cause i know it's there kj: but it's not what he shows every day usually me: i have tried to never once dog this guy kj: i know kj: i promised you i wouldn't do this so i shouldn't me: you can if you want, but if you go back to him again i am giving you the name of my shrink me: i think i need to go watch tv :-) kj: aw me: ? kj: i have to sulk alone?

Okeh Maybe it's pathetic, I made my favorite part of it BOLD :) give me your thoughts this girl makes me go weak damn it. No real other news going on, and yes I am talking to KJ right now DIOS MIO i am an idiot.